image of self

so the problem
is image of self
which I try
to deny
and others
to affirm;
although
this makes me
attractive
in a compassionate
sense,
it prevents me
from affirming
with which types
of people
it’s most healthy
for me
to surround myself;
people
manifest their minds
in their personal images;
i should
therefore
meditate
upon
my own image
for insight
into this
karmically
residual
self-image
which
i have come
to habitually negate;
my selflessness
should then be
both attractive
and directed
in the correct
direction.

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silence underneath…

silence underneath,
contorted effort
grown all day,
loud confronted
walking down eyes
bluely cold
tired, hurt, no more
goodness, goodness
i’ve had enough
distraction appealing
for its own sake,
his own sake
not to listen
and she follows
not to hurt him,
compassion
worn down
smoothed over,
gentle heart
worn down
exhausted,
no thank-you
is big enough,
her joy
kept in a safe place
at a distance,
intelligent girl,
dilemmas
all around
too many
to remember,
so let’s forget
and warm
each other’s minds,
listening cushions,
only until the difference
is forgotten,
forget me,
so i can be
the gentleness
i love best,
if I ask,
touched slightly
make me wait,
healing laughter
after me
where I set
a heart
thought
waiting
to carry
your world
in wishes
unthinking
of reward.

no reasons, no not reasons

Frustrated,
No reasons,
No not reasons,
Restraint,
No reason
No not reason
Cold, dry
Dehydrated eyes,
Want, want what?
No reason
No not reason.
What a predicament.
How will it end?
Why has it come?
“Self” worry
Seems healthy.
No reason
No not reason.
Is touch compassionate
Or lustful?
Is touch helpful
Or seeking?
Lust is a bad habit.
Compassion is a by-product
Of the Ocean.
Giving oneself, quietude,
Rest tender gentleness, listening.
Nothing left to desire,
Nothing lacking.
You believe in fantastic romance.
I believe in patience, quietude,
And irrational joy.